Estoy Mejor, Digo He Sido SANADA

I'm better. WAY better. I had to go through crap to get back on my way to being what God wants me to be. I told God that I was ready to do whatever I needed to do to be ready to leave for Mexico. That's a scary thing to tell God. Probably no one would guess, but monday and tuesday were two very hard days for me. I realized why I feel messed up so much lately. There were things that I needed to get out of my life. It's weird, I'm reading THREE books right now. And the combination of those three books is amazingly EXACTLY what I needed to hear these past few days. The books? Boundries (learning how to take control of your life so you still help people, but realize that you can't do everything - written by a Christian perspective - ultimately GOD is in control, but the point is that OTHER people are not), Lady in Waiting (Being single and serving God - this one me and Luisa are going through together more or less, I sent it to Honduras, then I decided to read the spanish version too, and it's been great), and El Abrazo del Padre In the Arms of the Father (Being in a love relationship with God, being in God's loving embrace - Emil gave me this for Christmas, and I put off reading in because I knew it would take a long time to read it in spanish). So basically it's been amazing to learn truths from God that I needed at the EXACT time that I learned them. And learning God's truths isn't always easy! I was sick yesterday and slept most of the morning, and spent the afternoon laying in my bed and reading. Man, God really has a captive audience when you're sick and can't sleep anymore but can't really be up doing things. I have this feeling that I was sick specifically so I'd be lying in bed unable to sleep just so God could finally get into my stubborn head. It was nice to have a prolonged conversation with the Lord, even if not everything was super pleasant. I still felt icky last night, so I called in sick for work for today. I was doing better by 8am when I got up, so I laid outside to read - more of those books. I have it in my head that when I get to Mexico I need to take one day a month and set aside at least half the day, hopefully the whole day to receive from the Lord. So, why didn't the thought cross my mind that I should be doing that NOW?! I refer to the day with God as "Going to Santa Lucia," as Michelle was the first person to let me know just how important a day away is. Santa Lucia is her place (or at least it was in 2003) and I want to find a place like that in Mexico or I should say in Queretaro or by Queretaro. So, starting yesterday, I will "Go to Santa Lucia" one day a month, or more if I feel led. So now, I am not sick, and I feel very refreshed and very healed. Well, in the healing learning process. I also had this euphoric feeling yesterday that I'm going to Mexico. I felt free to start my visa process, and to think about packing (for those who know me well, you know that moving away for 2 years will mean I need about 2 months to start packing or I'll complain about how bad packing sucks. I think of you Jess, and how I hated packing to go home for Christmas, or otherwise. Travelling would be perfect if it weren't for the packing aspect.) I'm just about at 70% for my support, and it's coming in rapidly - did I mention I sold the "Cucaracha?!?!?!" The VW Bug!!! That helped a lot. So, while the past few days have been anything but pleasant, I would go through it again to come out okay like this, to be obedient to the Lord.

Just a side note, because I can't help myself....... HONDURAS beat Panama 1-0 last night, making their THIRD win for the Gold Cup (against Trinidad, Colombia, and Panama). That's big. We'll be playing Costa Rica (Yikes!!) at 10am this saturday in the Quarter finals. Yep, see the picture below? That's Tyson Núñez, one of the best players for the Catracho Seleccion. Too bad he regularly plays for Marathón! Figueroa, Palacios, Tercios, and Velazquez are the REAL catrachos, they play for Olimpia!!

Michelle, Tyson, and I sipping granitas in Toncontin INT'L Airport. Yep, good ol' Ty, we go way back. HAHAHAHA! But I do know he speaks english more or less, and I could guesstimate that he's about 5'5"........ And that is truely all I know! But this is my only celebrity picture, except the one at PDX with Arvydas Sabonis' back after he scoffed at me asking for a picture with him! (Sabonis played for the Blazers late '90's and until like 2003)