Dia de Aprender

Today really sucks. I had a not-fun conversation with a friend today in which I found out that I was lied to about something that I am really upset about now, finding this out. I am mostly mad at myself for believing what was told to me, and for taking it seriously. I am frustrated at the person who this conflict is with, because I don't think I deserved this. No I won't go into details, because I don't want to de-face this individual, although I may be stepping over the line even mentioning this on this blog. But right now I really don't care. I am upset, and the person knows it. But I will be okay.... eventually. I don't want to hold a grudge, I think we will still be friends even after this incident. I think it's harder to forgive myself for getting myself into this whole mess. I can think back now, now that this is all over and done, of what I could have done differently to avoid how I feel now. I am scared for myself that I will pull away from people more now (and many of you, especially my first-floor roomies from 2001) know that I do NOT need to go back into the "pull away from people around me" mode. Especially when I'm so close to leaving for Mexico! Yay! Please pray for me, that I will not avoid building relationships with people now. Right now, I don't want to make any new friends, I don't want to let myself be hurt by them. It sucks. So I hope that I will bounce back quickly and get on with leaving here and going to Mexico. I know that leaving will not solve anything, so I hope that I am leaving the situation with no loose ends so I am not constantly pestered with wondering if everything is okay between me and the other person. I think I come at this with a healthy outlook, but I don't know. So I could use to prayer and encouragement now, honestly.