Ugh. Why is this "learning" thing so hard? Learnig to be patient, learning lots of other life lessons... Why I am I SO close to being able to leave for Mexico, but still not able to go!? Almost every day, SOMEONE asks me when I'm leaving, and all I can do is give a blank stare and say "I don't know yet, maybe the beginning of December." I try to think of what more needs to happen (besides obtaining another $135 a month) before I can leave, and I'm completely drawing a blank. Plans are being made around me being in Mexico - my parents are looking to take time off work to go there in February, Luisa is going there the end of January or in February... What if I'm not there yet? I mean, obviously, my parents could just go vacation at the beach for a week or something, and visit me later, but half the reason Luisa is even going to Mexico is because I'm there... And, assuming I am there, I'll be in language school 4 hours a day anyway, but I guess that won't dent plans too much... as long as I'm THERE! Vivian is waiting to come to the States until her spring break now, because I'll be in Honduras when she was going to go visit her mom.. MAYBE! What if I can't go?! Maybe people just tell me "oh, I'm going to Mexico to visit you," or "I'm staying here 'cuz you're coming," just to make me feel loved (it works!!), and they really have other reasons. Maybe I read too much into it.
Well, apparently I have stuff to learn still before going to Mexico. Like emaybe getting an attitude adjustment. I'm really am glad that I've been here so far though, things I've learned the past few months would NOT have been fun to deal with in Mexico. And, I would've missed out on meeting my chavos from Iglesia. :-)
So the journey continues... Just no more after Thanksgiving, ok!???
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